Cure
I 'escaped' today. I would have taken one of the babies with me, if I hadn't gone to a toxic place... the nail design studio. All that dust and powder and all those chemicals they put on my nails.. no, not a perfect baby spot. But a perfect spot for me today. Getting that bad feeling of neglect to go away and saying hello to my new me. New nails anyway.
And then there were offers. And shirts with cherries.. I couldn't resist buying something for the girls. Well actually quite a lot. But nevermind, they will look awesome all spring while their mother is dressed in rags and sweatpants. Honestly, is it just me or what did you guys do after being pregnant? What are you wearing?? All tight jeans are just that: tight. To tight. And all those chinos? Well, to tight and if not to tight, hurting my belly after a short while. Dresses are ok and most tights are too. But. There is always a bit nowadays.. how great are dresses, when you are crawling around on the floor making funny sounds, which are supposed to be lionesque. Not that much fun. And leggings, yeah! Great! But have you seen what your behind looks like in those? Not beautiful. And not to talk about underwear. Bras don't fit. Bigger new bras don't fit. Nothing but awful sports bras work and they aren't super when you need a bigger size. I was complaining about my pregnant body, but I at least had a purpose in looking like that. Now I just feel awkward in my body and would love to be pregnant again, so those maternity jeans would fit again. I have booked an appointment with a physiotherapist too. To get those muscles working again and hopefully my everlasting back pain will miraculously disappear. Maybe he can also make me feel more at home in my body again.
