I didn't think the feeling I had, when I saw the girls for the first time on the screen and then in real life, could be topped. But today it was. The girls have been holding on to items recently and a few days ago, their teddy bears became interesting and the girls even started smiling when I waved the bears in front of them and the smile just got bigger and bigger, as soon as they got to hold them in their arms.
This morning they were working out in the gym and being the cameramum I am, I of course had my phone ready. Suddenly I realised they were looking at each other. Not by coincidence, but because they wanted to. They looked amazed, as if they suddenly realised they aren't one, but two. They smiled at each other and especially Alice was overjoyed. I can't describe how I felt inside when I saw them smiling at each other. That warmth, that gigantic enormous feeling of love! It was such a wonderful magical moment. Going from ignoring each other and being annoyed because one was hitting the other, to this. I am so happy I am a cameramum! And being a mum who sees her babies, sees every step they take and each leap they make.
Maybe only multiple mums can understand this, but it was truly a memorable moment.
As you probably noticed, I haven't been posting that much recently and it's not because nothing is happening. The girls are progressing, they are starting to sit properly, show apetite, have a great sense of humour and their smile is just fantastic! No, it's not because nothing is happening, it is my current state of mind. I can't really focus. The days pass and I can barely say what day it is or how many days are left until Christmas.
To focus and write or to answer correspondence is really hard. So please don't be hard on me, if I don't answer on time or call back. I'm happy I am able to pay my bills on time. Or I think I do. Maybe I have missed one too. I don't know. I hope not.
Currently I live for the girls and everything else scares me. So seeing their first smile towards each other today, really made me happy. A happiness I didn't know I still had inside of me.
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