Holidays
As you have noticed, my updates on the blog have been sparse. I haven't had the strength to write or to form any kind of sentences, more than what needs to be said in daily life, like 'can you pass me the milk?'. What works is taking pictures. But then I don't need to say a lot. I even have trouble to focus on my crochet. My friends probably noticed, as I haven't even texted them, like I normally do. All this holiday business isn't quite my thing right now. I'd rather not have people around me. The only persons I can handle are my daughters and that's it.
Of course I do my best not to let it show, but that constant stress isn't working that well. So as we say in German: I am currently built close to water. Meaning, tears are burning behind the eyelids basically the whole time. I'm on my way to Clara now. My two angels are focusing on the glitter in their hair and my other little angel is looking down at us and smiling at her sisters and I hope she has a smile for her mother too.
