Darkness and light

December has been filled with both girls sick and I caught the flu after them every time. So sleepless nights and days at home with me missing work was what this month was all about. And I've been low. In fact it must be my lowest point ever. My New Year's Eve cracker gave me a direction tonight: 
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Meaning: don't curse the darkness, light a candle. I lit one this morning when I visited Clara and put a bouquet with my favourite flowers on her grave. Tulips. And I definitely need to get out of this sadness. 
Light in this darkness are the girls. They shine so bright. Both in their own way. They are such happy and funny companions. My all.
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